Friday, 22 July 2016

Rising up



I have already addressed body image and mental health a bit on here, but I have been meaning to talk about it again, for so long. (I know that some of these photos are slightly soft in focus but I like them, plus new lens problems, am I right?) Also, I totally got the name of this post from having been listening to Young Guns' entire back catalogue since their new music was released.




In about October, last year, I was put on antidepressants by my GP after feeling really, really low for months. I hated myself and I felt so lost with my life; everyone was applying for UCAS at college and I had no idea what I wanted to do. In the end, I applied for art, in a panic, as it was my favourite subject and also ended up neglecting my blog due to how ugly I felt. In short; everywhere I wanted to go for uni rejected me. I bawled my eyes out and felt like crap in college when people were getting conditional offers. I had a place for a foundation year, but knew it wasn't what I wanted to do. Fast forward sixth months, I'd come off medication because I am an idiot and thought I'd be better in the eyes of the guy I was dating if I wasn't on antidepressants. This has made me have such rocky spells. I can be fine one day, and the next, I'll be crying into a bag of crisps over a butter advert or something totally not tear-worthy. On a whim, I'd decided to apply for apprenticeships in digital marketing, as I felt like it fit in well with blogging and everything that I enjoy doing. In the two months leading up to this, I had been loving my blog again, I'd realized that fashion blogging was what I enjoyed doing most of all. I started loving my body, small boobs and all. I became more confident in myself, and no longer felt like I had to walk with my head down so people couldn't look at me. The biggest turning point for me was when I was on my way back from a trial shift looking hella smart in a suit, and saw a guy who used to give me hell back in high school; the lack of success plastered on his face. That's karma for you. Hours after this very encounter, I found out that I'd got the job! I start on August 8th, and am so excited yet nervous about the start of my career. I am now, more than ever, determined to get where I want to be in life. I now know that I can overcome bumps in the road along the way, and come out stronger, which is partly thanks to my best friend Beka, who is the sweetest, and who I can't wait to meet for a day of blog photo taking, eating and shopping!


Dress- H&M  (alternative maxi which I love)      Shoes- Sainsbury's (not online) 

Aaaand now on to what I'm wearing. There is something about a swishy maxi dress which makes you feel strong and empowered- which is why I thought it fit so well with the theme of this post. I got the dress from H&M in the January sales for a mere £5 which is a bloody bargain, if you ask me! I styled it with my new sandals, which I got from Sainsbury's, they are so pretty for summer and go perfectly with most outfits. The gold detailing on them is slightly art deco, but still modern, which works so well with taking the shoes from day to night. 
I am currently in Brighton, so expect outfit posts set near the beach or in the city itself next week! 

Holly Olivia x
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  1. I loved reading this post, it was so empowering and I'm so glad you got the job! You look gorgeous in these photos x

    Eleanorclaudie.com

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    1. Thank you- it is stunning isn't it? x

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  3. This post gave me such a positive vibe! I am so happy to hear you are more confident now and congrats on your new job!!
    You are stronger than you think you are!

    I love the photos!
    Dora www.BangsBang.com

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    1. I'm glad to hear it! Thank you Dora x

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  4. The dress is stunning and so are you! What a bargain. Good luck in your new job. Gemma x
    www.jacquardflower.uk

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  5. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU! I don't know you i know, but i'm literally bursting with happiness for you after reading - you are wonderful. I'm on Anti-depressants and remember trying to come off them, harder than it looks on paper! This has really empowered me, thank-you :)

    Bumble and Be

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    1. I have no idea how I didn't see this comment, oh my gosh, thank you! I hope everything is going well with you lovely x

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  6. I'm glad that you get joy from blogging. I do too! You are so gorgeous - I hope that you will remember that always. I know it can be difficult to love your body - I go through it too sometimes - but you have so many reasons to love it! XO, Janea
    www.theSTYLetti.com

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  7. This post is so inspiring and it's great to know you're feeling more yourself! Hope you're now settling in (as it's the 9th today!).


    Laura x
    www.laurahadley.co.uk

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    1. Thank you! It is tiring but I am enjoying it! x

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